We Will Miss You John Bear!
Johnathan Croom Passed Away August 18, 2013
A memorial and celebration of life was held at the Arizona Golf resort on September 7, 2013
Hundreds of people attended and shared hours of stories and testimonies about John’s impact on their life. There were so many people impacted by John’s caring and love towards others. He lived a life principled by the love of God and the desire to love others. He made everyone feel special.
John loved his family and they loved him. The tragedy was that he confided in people more concerned with keeping his secrets than helping him overcome his secret struggle with depression. Even John’s brother was not aware of the struggle John was confiding to these secret associations. The two of them had been roommates for six months after embarking out to begin the journey of adulthood as they shared an apartment and attended college together. John put on a happy face for his friends and family and developed a few associations with people incapable of truly helping him and pulling him out a struggle with serious pain and depression. If even one person had shared John’s secret struggle with his parents or an authority figure, John’s life story would not have ended so soon.
John’s story brought international attention in the press. There are thousands of stories about parents who have been impacted by the events in John’s and his family’s life. Parents and teens all over the place have opened broken or non-existent communication among themselves.
John remains a part of our lives because we know that he knew God in Christ and that he has gone ahead of us and is present with the Lord. We will be reunited in the resurrection. Not a day goes by that we don’t mention him and miss him. He will forever be in our thoughts and he will remain a part of who we are. We carry John in our hearts and rejoice that we will see him again at the end of the age.
John struggled much as the apostle Paul between his desire to help others and the desire to depart and be with Christ.
For I know that this will turn out for my deliverance through your prayer and the supply of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, according to my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain. But if I live on in the flesh, this will mean fruit from my labor; yet what I shall choose I cannot tell. For I am hard-pressed between the two, having a desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better. Nevertheless to remain in the flesh is more needful for you. And being confident of this, I know that I shall remain and continue with you all for your progress and joy of faith, that your rejoicing for me may be more abundant in Jesus Christ by my coming to you again.
Today I Quit My Job
Well I never had a job to begin with. Today I stopped work for one of my biggest sources of income. This came at a cost of losing over $2,000, but I am happy with my decision.
What’s next? I honestly don’t know. I’m not sure I want to continue programming. This is the perfect opportunity for me to retire my computer and start my life with people, not machines. I guess we will have to wait and see.
This post is going to be short simply because I don’t have a lot to say on the subject. Just know that this is merely a step into the future of opportunities and I look forward to what I’m going to be doing next.
Some people spend all of their time and effort searching for love. They search and search for some mystical soul-mate that will make their life complete. Unfortunately most people never find that perfectly compatible person and end up settling for somebody who kind of loves them sometimes.
I think the real question we need to ask ourselves is, “What is Love?” Baby don’t hurt me.. Don’t hurt me.. No more.
What is Love? Love is truly caring for somebody in ways that cannot be expressed in words, so we merely smash it into a single one: love. It can be platonic, like loving a friend, familial, like loving your child, and romantic, like loving your dearest wife.
Love can be expressed in a googol of different ways. It can be expressed by giving away some of your hard-earned money to somebody in need, by buying somebody a birthday present, by a passionate kiss, by the very words “I love you”, by being there for a troubled friend, by helping somebody relocate, and an indefinite number of other ways. The point is, love is everywhere surrounding us. It is the basis of our happiness and is most definitely evident daily.
So why do we insist on this ridiculous love search? Why can’t we recognize and enjoy all of the love surrounding every one of us and create happiness in others by loving? We can.
There are a very limited people involved in my life because of the fact that I work from home and haven’t attending school in a long while. Because of that, though, I have developed extremely good friendships with a small amount of people in my life. I call these people Croomies. They are the ones who happened to be in the right place at the right time in order to make my acquaintance and I value them very highly.
What I am looking for now is to create more Croomies. To have more people who I can influence and who can influence me. So if you’re out there, and looking for love, the original Croomy Jepster is always here with an open ear.
Location isn’t Everything
The last couple of days in the Florida Keys have really got me thinking about where we decide to live. I’ve met and interacted with a number of new people since being here and have come to the conclusion that location isn’t everything.
Back in Arizona, people complain on a regular basis about living there. It’s too hot, they’ve been there forever, there isn’t anything to do, and the lame-ness of locals are just a few of the common complaints. Honestly I never really noticed until my visit to the Keys. I was sitting outside on a lovely Thursday night just ten feet from a flowing canal, wind blowing and the stars shining. I was mid-way through a conversation with a lovely lady, Jessica. We talked briefly about what Arizona is like but I quickly changed the subject to how wondrous Florida is. I was shocked to hear of her strong desire to leave.
This was surprising to me merely because of the magnificence of everything I had experienced in the Keys up to that point. Her reasons for wanting to leave were eerily similar to those of my friends back home. She has lived in the Keys forever and doesn’t think there’s anything fun to do. While I understand a desire to make a big life change and a desire for a new location, I simply hope for good intentions when one does actually decide to relocate.
The reason this really stood out to me is because I’ve felt the exact same way. I have always wanted to leave Arizona for someplace new. Now, however, I realize I shouldn’t just leave because I’ve lived in Arizona forever or because I think there’s nothing to do.
Today marks the beginning of September, and it also marks the very beginning of my new blog. I have very big plans for the coming hours, days, months, and years of my life, and this is my feeble attempt to record these things and encourage you to go after your own goals and desires. The idea behind this blog is simple: to live a life worth writing about and actually write about it. That’s all for now, I’ve got to get to doing things!