Johnathan Croom · Life—only real when shared.

What’s the deal?

That’s the question of today. Today sucked. It basically consisted of unwanted sleeping, a crappy omelette, boring restaurant work, and that’s all.

I did get into a pretty good conversation with Joseph at work though. It was just about people, happiness and life. It was definitely a good one, and I got his phone number because I plan on having more conversations like it.

I spent a lot of time talking to customers today about a variety of subjects from tipping, to the weather, to car crashes, and traveling, and more weather. Everyone enjoys talking about how hot it is. I didn’t wear deodorant today on accident, but I didn’t notice too much despite spending the afternoon outside.

Before work, I had a bit of a dilemma in the car. I pondered life and all sorts of interesting topics that I’ve now forgotten. I know I felt horrible and sad and angry. It had a lot to do with my bad morning probably, but also just a lot to do with me in general.

So what’s the deal? (I’m in the process of remembering some of those big thoughts from driving to work). Why is it that I can be so unhappy even though things are good? Why can I be so dark and angry when everything in generally awesome? Is everyone like this? Is there something wrong with me?

Sometimes I just want to wallow in self-pity and improve nothing, but most of the time I sincerely want things to improve. I want to feel happy and satisfied with things.

I’m going to start writing things that I’m grateful for because I feel like grateful people are happy people, and ungrateful people can’t be happy.

What am I grateful for? That’s easy! There’s so many great things in my life. I have a wonderful home. I feel safe and comfortable and it’s fantastic to have my own creative space. I have two fantastic jobs that bring in more than enough income. I have a wonderful brother who I am very close with and can relate to in incredible ways.

I have an amazing girlfriend, who I can love. I have a couple really good friends that I can share experiences with. I have two great parents who are always there to support whatever it is that I want to do and will always be by my side in any way I need them. I’m healthy, extremely healthy. I have good problem solving skills that help me succeed in everything that I do.

I am past high school, finally, and have more college credits than others my age. I have many job-specific skills in the web industry. I have a perfectly-running vehicle that I love dearly. I have a nice telescope that satisfies my astronomical desires. I have an iPhone that is the perfect mobile device. I have an old, but trustworthy, MacBook that has served me extremely well.

I could probably go on and on about things that I’m grateful for, but this is enough for today. Look at all of the wonderful things in my life. I have nothing to be unhappy about. Nothing, not one thing, should be able to keep me from happiness.

Cheers, to happiness.

I ended up pushing a car numerous miles immediately following the writing of this.

Written by Johnathan Croom

Johnathan is a simple person. He keeps people motivated in order to motivate himself and spends his spare time being inspirational and quoting himself. He's searching for his purpose in the world and writing about the adventure called Life. He isn't a big believer in careers, but rather making dreams reality.

Johnathan Croom · Life—only real when shared.