That’s the question of today. Today sucked. It basically consisted of unwanted sleeping, a crappy omelette, boring restaurant work, and that’s all.
I did get into a pretty good conversation with Joseph at work though. It was just about people, happiness and life. It was definitely a good one, and I got his phone number because I plan on having more conversations like it.
I spent a lot of time talking to customers today about a variety of subjects from tipping, to the weather, to car crashes, and traveling, and more weather. Everyone enjoys talking about how hot it is. I didn’t wear deodorant today on accident, but I didn’t notice too much despite spending the afternoon outside.
Before work, I had a bit of a dilemma in the car. I pondered life and all sorts of interesting topics that I’ve now forgotten. I know I felt horrible and sad and angry. It had a lot to do with my bad morning probably, but also just a lot to do with me in general.
So what’s the deal? (I’m in the process of remembering some of those big thoughts from driving to work). Why is it that I can be so unhappy even though things are good? Why can I be so dark and angry when everything in generally awesome? Is everyone like this? Is there something wrong with me?
Sometimes I just want to wallow in self-pity and improve nothing, but most of the time I sincerely want things to improve. I want to feel happy and satisfied with things.
I’m going to start writing things that I’m grateful for because I feel like grateful people are happy people, and ungrateful people can’t be happy.
What am I grateful for? That’s easy! There’s so many great things in my life. I have a wonderful home. I feel safe and comfortable and it’s fantastic to have my own creative space. I have two fantastic jobs that bring in more than enough income. I have a wonderful brother who I am very close with and can relate to in incredible ways.
I have an amazing girlfriend, who I can love. I have a couple really good friends that I can share experiences with. I have two great parents who are always there to support whatever it is that I want to do and will always be by my side in any way I need them. I’m healthy, extremely healthy. I have good problem solving skills that help me succeed in everything that I do.
I am past high school, finally, and have more college credits than others my age. I have many job-specific skills in the web industry. I have a perfectly-running vehicle that I love dearly. I have a nice telescope that satisfies my astronomical desires. I have an iPhone that is the perfect mobile device. I have an old, but trustworthy, MacBook that has served me extremely well.
I could probably go on and on about things that I’m grateful for, but this is enough for today. Look at all of the wonderful things in my life. I have nothing to be unhappy about. Nothing, not one thing, should be able to keep me from happiness.
Cheers, to happiness.
I ended up pushing a car numerous miles immediately following the writing of this.